是压力吗？还是借口？
Friday, 30 July 2010,6:07 pm
Haiz..... DUno is it me or wad but feel like pressure is piling up each day....
Maybe I am still not very use to going to sch so cant really take the pressure man~
Since sch starts, everything has been piling in man....
The whole month of Aug which is supposed to be my fav month turn into a nightmare....
2nd week and maybe last week of Aug will hab test.....
Den on 2nd n 3rd week of Aug hab to hand in assignments....
OMG lah!
I am like not here nor dere and all these things starts to come already lor....
Next week is like Aug liao....
Oh man so much work and so little time....
Maybe because of all this shit I treasure everyday like what man...
Also everyday I am getting more and more mentally unsound....
A little bit jiu EMO...
Haiz....
2 days ago duno coz of wad Volcanoe exploded.....
But then duno is it me or wad Volcanoe make it like it is all my fault that she explode....
I am like WTH....
You ask me do this I do like but is the Mosquitoe Queen and MosquitoePrince that are making all the fuss.....
Den wad for u throw your temper at me...
I did wad u wan and in the end I am the one getting shout at
I am like WTF!
Due to this was a little EMO
But tat didnt stop dere lor.....
Dey think I am superman or wad no feeling and temper one....
At night the Mosquitoe Queen was like doing her HW den cant do den
The Mosquitoe King was like asking the MOsquitoe Prince to help
Den WTF the idiot Mosquitoe King went on drama rama
Keep rambling abt why is it always tat kind of WTF excuses....
I was like WTH!
Aft rambling he juz went off
Den Mosquitoe King was like grumbling sae wad:
Erm if i noe I dun need ask u liao
So I tot maybe I go out help will stop all the him from buzzing
BUT NO~
I went to get my dinner to seat down to solve the fucking qn
And I saw the qn its like the way to solve the qn is so simple
Use guess and check
but the asshole Mosquitoe Queen simply is too lazy to go tru all the tedious step...
She think she super smart insist on wanting me to use Algebra to teach her...
I was like it is not taught in the syllabus use liao teacher also dun accept lor
Den the Mosquitoe Queen gave the WTF face think I purposely make her do the long step
I am like WTF man help u still gib me tat FUCKING face of yours
Like GO TO HELL CAN!
Den the FUKCING idiot start to cry can....
Wah lao eh I haven cry u cry first cry wad seh....
Help u find ans u also cry super drama rama can
SUPER DISGUSTING CAN!
Den I told her to use the method den the Mosquitoe King saw her face, den turn arnd and scold me
Keep saying: you show me lah wad is this method come show me lah
His tone like super WTF can......
Keep thinking That I purposely wan the Mosquitoe Queen to go the long way...
Den ok lor I did out the method for her with the ans
The method is so FUCKING easy to understand but
The idiot Mosquitoe King continue his: you show me lah, wads is this I duno show me lah...
I was WTF
Can shut up anot....
Its not like he need to noe, he is not even seating for PSLE can....
As long as the one seating for the exam know can liao wad.....
WTF....
Aft the whole episode went into my room....
Seriously the 2 days of yueng wang-ness seriously start to built in man....
Aft tat tot veri long to whether wan to bother anyone to tok to anot....
Den tot of Angel =)
SO smsed Angel and straight away Angel called...
Super efficent can hahahah =)
Like those hotline super fast....
Lucky the Angel character is super off de
So veri fast jiu pull myself together liao....
THANKS ANGEL =)
Sometimes I really wonder if I am part of this family....
Coz the feeling they give me is like I am family if I am needed....
I think onli GO MI NAM treat me as a family bah...
The rest are like happy or need u jiu treat u like one...
Not happy jiu treat u like a maid....
Use liao jiu throw away and when using still not happy jiu scold....
Seriously this kind of place can hold me no longer.....
The happy pic which I always paint is like fading away veri quickly...
It made me realise that I am the onli idiot who think that this pic will happen....
Since no one believe this will happen den sorry I will not work hard to make this pic come to life either...
Once I am financially capable, I will start leaving my own life, away from all this...
Sometimes I really think that the sentence "family is always there for you" is really crap...
Coz sometimes I dun feel it at all...
I think my other 'family' is so much better coz no arguements or maybe because we meet once a month thats why no chance to argue hahahahah =)
But anyway I still have to endure all this crap and put on a fake face till the time comes
When I can be myself again.....
Hope that this day can come soon =)
But maybe overtime I will change my mind again since I am forever fickle-minded
And think that HOME is still the best place on earth bah...
But currently to me it is not, Just a place for me to eat free food, slp and take money.....
Lastly Thansk Angel for everything =)
好久没来了可是你还是我最棒的发泄桶 =)
Saturday, 10 July 2010,3:00 pm
这几个月来发生了很多事。。。
可是我往往没有时间上来这里分享所有发生的一切一切。。。。
可能是懒惰，可能是太累，也可能是别的借口。。。。
今天上来留这篇文章是为了打发时间吧。。。。
而且这里像是废墟，已经没有人上来这儿了。。。
这可不见是一件坏事因为我能尽情的写不用怕任何人看见 =)
首先，要说的是，我本来要做一件非常需要胆量才能做的事。。。
可是，经过一些朋友的劝说我打算打退堂鼓。。。。
那时所拥有的勇气全部都消失了。。。。
它们都不知道飞去哪里了。。。
所以我不知道我该不该继续向我以前打算的哪样前进。。。
可是当我在考虑这个问题时，‘他’出现了。。。
‘他’让我犹豫要不要继续我的计划。。。
当我和‘他’在一个空间时，‘他’让我觉得‘他’好自在。。。
我不用顾虑旁边的一切尽情地和‘他’说话，和‘他’闹 =)
虽然我和‘他’只见过两次面可是每次我都觉得好熟哦。。。
我不知道这会不会是一种长久的感觉还是会像龙卷风一样很快的过，
这应该需要时间来判断吧。。。
可是以现在来说‘他’是其中一个让我打退堂鼓的原因。。。
现在的我每天都期待下一次可以见到‘他’的机会。。。
我觉得很难可是‘他’却觉得一定会因为我手上有一件‘他’想看到的东西=)
虽然心底很想很想立刻见到‘他’可是还是让一切随缘吧。。。
